And sometimes I forget that. Not only do we live two hours apart, in two different cities, in two different provinces; you have deal with one person’s selfish love-hungry personality. And to your fortune that emotionally-centered person is me.
So I’d like to come clean with my emotions and say that I am truly thankful for having someone that understands my wave of random emotions and stubborn personality. Because, at the end of the day, every relationship should be a two way street. Having a long distance relationship has its’ disadvantages and benefits. The distance is an obvious drawback; it leads to emotions and words getting lost in our momentum and the unwanted rise to several (a lot) insecurities. However, love will fairly suppress these feelings and roadblocks, because being in a long distance relationship makes you realize how much you take little things for granted. Distance challenges your emotional psyche, for when the phone becomes your only means of communication, Skype your virtual intimacy and your Social Network interest then becomes a shared reality; you quickly realize that you put twice as much effort in trying to make each other happy. Because our relationship is a two way street. There have been times where we’d end up on a one way, and times where one of us would be threatened to take the highway, but feelings getting hurt and left behind never patch things up to make the mood ahead right. I don’t correct him, he doesn’t correct me, we teach each other equally.
So you showed me that my vision of our future should always be seen as a possibility, a potential reality, and I got angry. But, because a relationship should be a two way street, because I didn’t want to envision a future of you without me, I subconsciously failed to recognize your feelings in all of this. It was all about me -about my future moving to Toronto and how we should stay together to make me happy- but really, this would be hurting you ultimately. I apologized before, and I will apologize again, I am sorry. There is something about me not being able to admit to my emotional defeat, but because I believe that a relationship is a two way street, I can only hope that if one day we do break-up,one day -in a near or distant future- our paths will once again meet.
So you showed me that my vision of our future should always be seen as a possibility, a potential reality, and I got angry. But, because a relationship should be a two way street, because I didn’t want to envision a future of you without me, I subconsciously failed to recognize your feelings in all of this. It was all about me -about my future moving to Toronto and how we should stay together to make me happy- but really, this would be hurting you ultimately. I apologized before, and I will apologize again, I am sorry. There is something about me not being able to admit to my emotional defeat, but because I believe that a relationship is a two way street, I can only hope that if one day we do break-up,one day -in a near or distant future- our paths will once again meet.